on intimacy, or something
1/29/2019
what i think, what i want, how i feel
fantasy, connection, shame
well this trifecta doesn’t need to select a
leader for this fever to turn this overachiever into a
picnic case
and what a disgrace
the luminance this vessel could share
but its sense of worth and validation
is rooted in conquest and salvation
(a passion player with a rescue complex)
no one’s gonna save him
because i don’t know how to hydrate
my rider keeps on stopping at the source
but without instructions or a script to rely on
it’s been “yes, i’ll take this anomaly”
because it’s all i can get
and all i can get is what i deserve
but what i deserve is to
feel i belong
feel i’m ok
feel like i’m felt
feel like i’m touched
without pushing away
as i’m melting for this.